I almost always try to post once a week, usually twice, but this has been a crazy week for me. If I only post once, I always post on Sunday! However, today is not the usual Sunday for me. Our exchange student left and returned to France. We went to lunch and did last minute shopping and stayed at the airport a while. Two of my boys go back to school tomorrow. We did backpack clean outs and that’s always devastating as the entire summer has passed with Cheez-Its, rotten bananas, and dirty socks in the packs that I get to scoop out. This year, I even got some chewed gum. Finally, I’m nervous and anxious as I have cosmetic surgery planned first thing in morning at 7:30AM.
I fear the post for skin care products I have been working on might not get published tonight. I still wanted to say hello and share what’s been going on this week. I know what you are thinking now! Cosmetic surgery, what?! Why?! What are you doing?! Oh my God! You don’t need it! Well, if you’ve been with me for a while on the blog, you may have read one of my first blog posts wondering why does everyone hate cosmetic surgery. I mentioned in that post that I’d probably plan for rhinoplasty and that’s exactly what I’m doing. It’s been planned for months and it’s finally going down tomorrow.
So, here I am. Shaking a little but also excited. I’m not at all ashamed to admit that I want to have this surgery and change something about the way I look. Not everyone will agree and that’s okay with me. I know that my family and friends, including my blogosphere friends, who care about me and have come to know me through my writing and photos will support me. I’m confident in who I am and the choices I make and that’s why I don’t hide behind my choices, including this one. It’s obvious by the size of my frame that my breasts are not real and people can roll their eyes if they want to. I’m happy and I wouldn’t change anything and that’s what really matters. I make choices that will make me happy since I only get to live my life once. Actually, I wish I did my breasts years earlier but I had to be sure I was finished having children. Let me tell you though, nursing three children, gaining and losing weight, and the natural effect of gravity can do quite a number of those things! By the age of 40, I really wanted them to be revitalized and I couldn’t be happier and feel more beautiful with my augmentation and lift. I just wish I could have been enjoying what I did ten years earlier because I truly love the results.
I’ve always vowed to be a very honest blogger. Even off the blog, when people comment on a feature that I know I’ve enhanced (for instance, my lips), I always respond with thank you and I say I wish they were naturally mine but I use Juvederm. I’m not pretending or hiding behind anything I do. I was disappointed watching the Kylie Jenner drama unravel. Having enhanced my own lips, I knew immediately when I saw her before photos that she used a filler in her lips. I would have bet everything I had on that one! Unfortunately, young adults everywhere started the Kylie Jenner challenge trying to figure out how to naturally plump their lips the way they thought she did. They used devices that permanently damaged or seriously injured them thinking Kylie didn’t do anything unnatural. Weeks later, the confession came out, and Kylie admitted to it. I’m glad she admitted it so the young women who admired her realized only science was going to offer that sort of change and they would stop doing things that were injuring them. The issue made the news in Phoenix and my cosmetic surgeon was on the local news discussing the unfortunate damage being caused by lip plumping devices. For me, I don’t want to hide behind anything. If I feel I have to hide the truth, then I might rethink my decision. My hair? That’s actually real. My lips? They are naturally full but I addressed some symmetry issues and wanted the top lip to be fuller. A couple months ago, I made minor changes to them and I love them and I’ll do it again as it wears off! I have no issue admitting it.
Since the seventh grade, I’ve disliked my nose. A boy on the bus made a comment about how I was pretty but my nose was a little big. He was so right! He’s probably the only person that actually ever said it. It really hurt me to hear that because it was the moment when what I thought about my nose became a reality. It was a little big and I knew it all along. It doesn’t look too big from the front but from the side and certain angles (which I never let anyone photo), it looks big and it’s more prominent on my face than I would like it to be.
Cosmetic surgery was too expensive for me in my younger years so I couldn’t do anything about it. I wasn’t willing to go to a surgeon unless he was a top rated doctor which meant I had to pay a high price so I had to wait until I was older and my husband and I were financially secure. Fortunately, I live near Scottsdale which is where many prominent surgeons reside. I’ve established a relationship with one that I have complete trust for. I’m very safe and in the hands of one of our best doctors here in the western US. I honestly believe that if this surgeon didn’t think there was a real opportunity for improvement, he would have turned me away. He’s told me no to quite a few things I’ve asked him about. He’s either said I don’t need the procedure or I wouldn’t be satisfied with the results. He’s also told me when I was obsessing on something that no one else could see or notice but me. He’s so incredibly busy that he would have turned me away on this too if he thought it wasn’t a choice that would make me truly happy and maintain his impeccable reputation. So, while everyone might say I don’t need it. The truth is…. I don’t NEED it but I WANT it and it WILL be an improvement (in my eyes). Rhinoplasty is the second most common cosmetic surgery in the US and the oldest and it’s quite safe. I believe I’m as safe as I am getting into my car every day and trusting my life to the thousands of other drivers on the road. Cars are deadly weapons especially when someone behind the wheel has been drinking or using drugs (legal or prescription). Shit…. I’m probably safer on the operating table than I am driving around after 10PM at night.
So, there you have it. The skin care post will probably not be published until Wednesday and then I’ll be posting frequently since I’m off work for a couple of weeks to heal. I’m feeling really anxious but I love change and I’m really excited to move forward with this. I hope you can understand my point of view. I hope you also respect my decision as well as my honesty about it. I’m happy to answer questions if anyone is wondering about a certain procedure or what it’s like to use some of the injectables and things like that. You can always message me off line and I’m very open to share what it’s like and what to expect.
I’m off to soak in a Lush bath now and try and get ready for an early start tomorrow. I’m sending hugs and kisses from Arizona and I’ll be back on line in a couple of days! Who knows, I could be on line by 5PM tomorrow! I did go to the grocery store within 24 hours of delivering my first baby. I made my husband stop on the way home from the hospital. I’m a trooper!
Lots of love to you all,