My Upcoming Cosmetic Surgery

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I almost always try to post once a week, usually twice, but this has been a crazy week for me.  If I only post once, I always post on Sunday!  However, today is not the usual Sunday for me.  Our exchange student left and returned to France.  We went to lunch and did last minute shopping and stayed at the airport a while.  Two of my boys go back to school tomorrow.  We did backpack clean outs and that’s always devastating as the entire summer has passed with Cheez-Its, rotten bananas, and dirty socks in the packs that I get to scoop out.  This year, I even got some chewed gum.  Finally, I’m nervous and anxious as I have cosmetic surgery planned first thing in morning at 7:30AM.

I fear the post for skin care products I have been working on might not get published tonight.  I still wanted to say hello and share what’s been going on this week.   I know what you are thinking now!  Cosmetic surgery, what?!  Why?!  What are you doing?!  Oh my God!  You don’t need it!  Well, if you’ve been with me for a while on the blog, you may have read one of my first blog posts wondering why does everyone hate cosmetic surgery.  I mentioned in that post that I’d probably plan for rhinoplasty and that’s exactly what I’m doing.  It’s been planned for months and it’s finally going down tomorrow.

So, here I am.  Shaking a little but also excited.  I’m not at all ashamed to admit that I want to have this surgery and change something about the way I look.  Not everyone will agree and that’s okay with me.  I know that my family and friends, including my blogosphere friends, who care about me and have come to know me through my writing and photos will support me.  I’m confident in who I am and the choices I make and that’s why I don’t hide behind my choices, including this one.  It’s obvious by the size of my frame that my breasts are not real and people can roll their eyes if they want to.  I’m happy and I wouldn’t change anything and that’s what really matters.  I make choices that will make me happy since I only get to live my life once.   Actually, I wish I did my breasts years earlier but I had to be sure I was finished having children.  Let me tell you though, nursing three children, gaining and losing weight, and the natural effect of gravity can do quite a number of those things!  By the age of 40, I really wanted them to be revitalized and I couldn’t be happier and  feel more beautiful with my augmentation and lift.  I just wish I could have been enjoying what I did ten years earlier because I truly love the results.

I’ve always vowed to be a very honest blogger.  Even off the blog, when people comment on a feature that I know I’ve enhanced (for instance, my lips), I always respond with thank you and I say I wish they were naturally mine but I use Juvederm.  I’m not pretending or hiding behind anything I do.  I was disappointed watching the Kylie Jenner drama unravel.  Having enhanced my own lips, I knew immediately when I saw her before photos that she used a filler in her lips.  I would have bet everything I had on that one!   Unfortunately,  young adults everywhere started the Kylie Jenner challenge trying to figure out how to naturally plump their lips the way they thought she did.  They used devices that permanently damaged or seriously injured them thinking Kylie didn’t do anything unnatural.  Weeks later, the confession came out, and Kylie admitted to it.  I’m glad she admitted it so the young women who admired her realized only science was going to offer that sort of change and they would stop doing things that were injuring them.  The issue made the news in Phoenix and my cosmetic surgeon was on the local news discussing the unfortunate damage being caused by lip plumping devices.  For me, I don’t want to hide behind anything.  If I feel I have to hide the truth, then I might rethink my decision. My hair?  That’s actually real.  My lips?  They are naturally full but I addressed some symmetry issues and wanted the top lip to be fuller.  A couple months ago, I made minor changes to them and I love them and I’ll do it again as it wears off!  I have no issue admitting it.

Since the seventh grade, I’ve disliked my nose.  A boy on the bus made a comment about how I was pretty but my nose was a little big.  He was so right!  He’s probably the only person that actually ever said it.  It really hurt me to hear that because it was the moment when what I thought about my nose became a reality.   It was a little big and I knew it all along.  It doesn’t look too big from the front but from the side and certain angles (which I never let anyone photo), it looks big and it’s more prominent on my face than I would like it to be.

Cosmetic surgery was too expensive for me in my younger years so I couldn’t do anything about it.  I wasn’t willing to go to a surgeon unless he was a top rated doctor which meant I had to pay a high price so I had to wait until I was older and my husband and I were financially secure.  Fortunately, I live near Scottsdale which is where many prominent surgeons reside.  I’ve established a relationship with one that I have complete trust for.   I’m very safe and in the hands of one of our best doctors here in the western US.  I honestly believe that if this surgeon didn’t think there was a real opportunity for improvement, he would have turned me away.  He’s told me no to quite a few things I’ve asked him about.  He’s either said I don’t need the procedure or I wouldn’t be satisfied with the results.   He’s also told me when I was obsessing on something that no one else could see or notice but me.  He’s so incredibly busy that he would have turned me away on this too if he thought it wasn’t a choice that would make me truly happy and maintain his impeccable reputation.  So, while everyone might say I don’t need it.  The truth is…. I don’t NEED it but I WANT it and it WILL be an improvement (in my eyes).  Rhinoplasty is the second most common cosmetic surgery in the US and the oldest and it’s quite safe.  I believe I’m as safe as I am getting into my car every day and trusting my life to the thousands of other drivers on the road. Cars are deadly weapons especially when someone behind the wheel has been drinking or using drugs (legal or prescription). Shit…. I’m probably safer on the operating table than I am driving around after 10PM at night.

So, there you have it.  The skin care post will probably not be published until Wednesday and then I’ll be posting frequently since I’m off work for a couple of weeks to heal.  I’m feeling really anxious but I love change and I’m really excited to move forward with this.  I hope you can understand my point of view.  I hope you also respect my decision as well as my honesty about it.  I’m happy to answer questions if anyone is wondering about a certain procedure or what it’s like to use some of the injectables and things like that.  You can always message me off line and I’m very open to share what it’s like and what to expect.

I’m off to soak in a Lush bath now and try and get ready for an early start tomorrow.  I’m sending hugs and kisses from Arizona and I’ll be back on line in a couple of days!  Who knows, I could be on line by 5PM tomorrow!  I did go to the grocery store within 24 hours of delivering my first baby.  I made my husband stop on the way home from the hospital.  I’m a trooper!

Lots of love to you all,

Janine -XO 



45 thoughts on “My Upcoming Cosmetic Surgery

  1. Love your blog Janine and I love everything that you’re saying about surgery it is so very true. because of you, for real, I’m having surgery on September 8 you know what it is. I’m so excited and scared I’ll be calling you when I’m resting in bed.

    1. You will be anxious before. You will question yourself about a week after. Why did I do this? Then, about 3 weeks after you will ask yourself why you waited so long. I have to tell myself not to be upset that I didn’t do it sooner. You are gonna LOVE your results but remember… Patience. The swelling takes a while to get the final result in!

  2. Wow – this was a great post. I wish you all the best with your procedure. I am a huge advocate for doing whatever it takes to make you feel happy, healthy and confident. I also totally understand about having insecurities and being made fun of for them. I remember also as a teen, a boy telling me that I “had a great body…too bad about my face”, and was called “Butterface” and “Big Nose” a lot. Those stuck with me to this day. I always consider rhinoplasty but I’m too chicken. Maybe one day.

    Anyways, I think you are great and beautiful! Keep on keepin’ on! xoxoxoxox

    1. Omg how awful!! It’s those things that kids do and say that just torture us 25 years later. I don’t know if I ever would have been so insecure about my nose! Today, schools try harder to keep kids saying positive things to each other but there’s been major fails and devastating losses over what kids do. I was chicken and I just went for it! I couldn’t find a photo where someone looked worse so I thought… I’ll be ok!! I’ll post a mid way recovery thing this week with my horrific photos and then in about 6-8 weeks when all swelling and bruising isn’t so obvious, I’ll post again. I want to share so people know. Of course me looking like a raccoon is not ideal but I think being open and giving people something real to relate to can help them.

      1. Awwww! Thank you for this. I think it’s really brave and open of you to share this experience with us. And yes – kids can be cruel. Happy that schools are focusing more on teaching positivity, kindness and anti-bullying these days!

        1. I just found this in my spam folder, how weird! Sorry for the late response! So, the deed is done now! I’m so happy! I’m posting results along the way. =)

    1. Thanks Anna!! The surgery went very well and I’m home resting now. I just ate a bowl of ice cream but I shouldn’t have since I couldn’t taste it!! It’s not overly painful but a bit uncomfortable. Excited to get the splint off and see my new nose!

  3. You got to live your life! I think it takes a lot of courage to make a change. Lots of people are complacent but they complain and are unhappy. You’re a grown woman who has done her research and making a choice – that’s admirable!
    Here’s to speedy recovery and your updated nose is what you’ve always wanted! ๐Ÿ™‚
    If you are up to it later, I’d very much be interested in seeing before and after photos.

    1. I’ll post photos for sure. Thank you so much for the support. It makes me feel so good to have people who support me. I think only my dad has really given me hard time.

  4. I think you’re so beautiful! It’s your body and your choice. You should do whatever makes you feel good about yourself. My thoughts and prayers are with you! <3 xo

  5. OMG the backpack cleanout! I’m ashamed to admit I let that go all Summer lol. I’m so organized and on top of everything around here, but when I saw that over-stuffed backpack I just tossed it in his closet and promised I’d get to it eventually. I’m sure there’s no food in there, but probably lots of stuff that should be recycled. Oops?

    I’m sure most of us can find something about ourselves we’d like to change. When I was younger I swore I’d never get any kind of work done. But things change. We change. I say if doing this makes you happy, go for it! I wish you the best and hope you have a speedy recovery!

    1. Thanks Lisa!! I felt that way too. In my 20s I never considered it but 20 years later in my 40s I was like “hey wait a minute”. Lol. I don’t know how the kids can find anything in their packs. I used a full sized trash back to clean our wonder bags out!

  6. Thank you for being a honest blogger and not one whom goes on saying “Ohhh, it’s natural, I was born this way”. I have no problem with plastic surgery, I doubt I’ll ever go through one for myself but if someone wants to do it then it is their right and I am happy for them. Hope everything goes well tomorrow! Hugs! xx

    Shireen | Reflection of Sanity

  7. Best of luck and a speedy recovery! You gotta do what is right for you. Don’t see why it’s anyone else’s business ๐Ÿ™‚

  8. Best of luck for a speedy recovery! Sounds like you’ve found a great doctor and are in good hands. You are already beautiful but if this is something you’ve wanted to do for a long time and will make you happier then go for it!! And, who cares what anyone thinks. There are always going to be judgmental people out there but they can go you know where! It’s all about what makes YOU feel happy. I’ve had my breasts done in my twenties and don’t regret it one bit. I always wanted to get rhinoplasty myself but my husband adores my nose and really doesn’t want me to change it. I’ve grown to like my nose now – I guess my face grew into it lol but if I really felt strongly about it, I would do it. I’m looking forward to seeing the results! I love your openness and thank you for sharing your journey xx ๐Ÿ™‚

  9. this Cat says
    it’s your body and face do what You like
    xo U know
    my chest is “not from God ” spoken from a little child a whilst back …….
    Ur gonna be fine
    and listen if i were remarried – we can talk about that on email one day xxxx
    xo U get my drift
    Lots of good vibes xo
    ur gonna be fine
    we heal so freaking quick when we are in a Good place xo
    Truth xxx
    Love love love

  10. Good luck on your surgery! I hope for a speedy recovery! I am happy you are doing something that makes you happy. There are so many people who are judgmental these days when it comes to cosmetic surgery, but with the funds, everyone would change something that they don’t like.

    Again, good luck and I can’t wait until we get to see your gorgeous face post-op! xo

    1. Thank you sweetie!! I’m on my way now! People will always judge others. It’s kind of sad but that’s life. I try to surround myself with supportive people! And the others? Well…. I try to stay away. I have always just stood up for what I wanted to do and try to make it happen whatever it is. It’s beenine that since I was a little girl. My poor parents!

  11. “So, while everyone might say I donโ€™t need it. The truth isโ€ฆ. I donโ€™t NEED it but I WANT it and it WILL be an improvement.” Probably the truest thing I’ve ever heard about cosmetic surgery.

    This is a great post. I was with you back when you first made that post, and I’m with you now! I was wondering when you were planning on getting it, actually. I think you look beautiful now, and I hope you love the results! <3 Good luck, I hope it all goes well.

    Also, ftr, I don't think it's anyone's business whether or not you've had surgery. I couldn't tell you had fillers in your lip. People complain about you not being natural if you get cosmetic surgery, but that's just stupid – it's a part of your body now! I think breast augmentation is more truthful and real than push-up bras. =P This coming from someone who wears mostly padded push-up bras now that I've lost weight and dropped a cup size.

    I just don't see anything wrong with getting cosmetic surgery. You notice how in sci-fi stories and cartoons, in the future, people are able to change their appearance on a whim? Lmao. We're pretty much at that point now, and people are still tossing fits over it, rather than admiring the skill.

    1. Ahhh thank you beautiful! I’ve been scheduled for months. He’s just booked way out but I was willing to wait. I know it will be what I hope for. We did computer imagery and he totally gets it. I think it’s his favorite surgery to perform.

      People will always complain about everything! They complain if your boobs are too big, too small, you wear makeup, you don’t wear makeup, you don’t want pets, you have pets. It’s like … OMG!! I had someone not come to my house because I had cats (meant my house wasn’t sanitary). Ummm ok, don’t come! Sorry! I love animals!

      So for me, I just figure if someone doesn’t like me and judges me for things like that..I probably don’t really want them in my life anyhow because we obviously don’t see life the same way. ???? I don’t even mind if someone is against it just as long as they can let people do what makes them happy. It might be piercing their nose, dying their hair blue, getting a tattoo – whatever it is, if the person is happy, great!! Everyone has to live their own life. Life brings big challenges and I wonder sometimes how people find the energy to try and live theirs, and everyone elses! I’m nervous and excited. Thanks for the encouraging words. I adore you!! Xo

      P.s. I couldn’t even save myself with the VS bombshell bra. After Noah? Lol, I had majorly lopsided rocks in socks. I was like a cartoon!! ????

      1. Good to hear!

        Ah, isn’t that the truth, though? X( People are such pains in the asses sometimes! It really is best to just learn to ignore things. And I agree – I’m not one for the dyed armpit hair trend admittedly, but I don’t really give a rat’s ass if someone else is, y’know?

        I’m sure it’ll go fine! =) Wishing you luck!

        Omg, that’s awful. That reminds me, after my mom had me, my sister (she was 7) looked at my mom’s breasts and commented that they looked like little deflated balloons. Poor mothers! What they must endure. ;P

        1. My husband would never say anything to me about my hair, weight, nothing!!! If I wanted a tattoo of a rat on my forehead, he’d support me with a smile. But the breasts… He actually said they looked really bad. Llololoool. Oh they were hideous.

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