I wanted to take a moment to wish my beautiful new followers who are mommies a Happy Mother’s Day. I hope this is a day for you to feel pampered and appreciated for being a mommy! I also want to take a moment to send my love and special thoughts to those of you who may not have your children with you anymore but always in your heart. Happy Happy Mother’s Day to all of you and thank you for being a part of my life and I’m honored to be a part of yours.
I’ll share a personal Mother’s Day story with you. This is my 5 year old. Well, soon to be 6 next month. They grow up quickly. Don’t they? Meet Noah.
Before Noah, I had 3 miscarriages and had just about given up on the thought of having a third child. Every time I got pregnant and got excited, 6-7 weeks into the pregnancy, I would have a miscarriage. It was disheartening, depressing, and emotionally draining. I stopped trying for a few years and no one could find anything wrong with me but I couldn’t take the stress and disappointment anymore.
In October of 2008 we gave it another go and I was pregnant yet again. I had a trip planned to Guadalajara in November to shop for Mexican art and attend an annual fair that I like to go to. I scheduled an appointment with my doctor about a week before the trip. It was my first ultrasound and I was excited. I saw the gestational sac on the screen and was thrilled but then was delivered the message “I’m sorry, there’s no fetus”. I was told this was called a blighted ovum and rather common and would result in a miscarriage over the next couple of weeks. Again? Every bit of energy in me was instantly drained and I burst into tears.
I was offered some medication that would speed up the process because the doctor didn’t want me to have a miscarriage with any complications while I was out the country. I declined and said I would be in Guadalajara and there was a world renowned medical school and hospital in that city. If it happened, it happened but no thanks on the pill. In my heart, I still felt pregnant. If I had 1% of hope, then I was holding on! Off to Mexico I went and felt sick the entire time I was there and nothing went wrong.
When I returned, I went back to the doctor for a follow up and during the ultrasound, I saw a fetus and heartbeat. How could that be? I was waiting for another miscarriage all this time and the doctor had been wrong! I was told either my timing was off or the fetus was in a location that couldn’t be seen. All I could think was…. what if I took that pill? Needless to say, I changed doctors. I had a perfect pregnancy with no issues and in June 2009 this little guy came into my life. I think about how lucky I am to have him everyday and we have an unusually close bond. He is laying in my arms as I type this.
It was not another miscarriage
Children can bring indescribable joy to your life as there is an extraordinary bond and love that you form with them. As a mommy, we want to protect them forever and it’s so hard to let them grow up. My oldest will be 15 soon but I want to protect him as if he was a baby. In a mother’s view, they are always a baby and sometimes that’s all you can see when you look at them, especially when they are sleeping.
I hope this is a joyous day for my readers and you can embrace the love and bond you have with your children. If you don’t have children and decide to one day, everything your mother did that may have driven you crazy will all make sense one day. What an incredible moment it is when you deliver a baby and seconds later that baby is placed in your arms. There’s really no way to describe it except that the moment is truly surreal. It is an experience a woman never forgets. It changes who you are forever in all the most beautiful ways.
Happy Mother’s Day to my supportive and beautiful followers. Lots of love to you. -Janine XO